Truth? I can't handle the Truth!!

I love the tube journeys. And the trains. And even the buses. Basically anything where delays might occur. The reason? I'm in the middle of playing the new Zelda game. And it is truly awesome, one of the best. Now journeys fly by, old women are left standing and hold ups fill me with joy. But as fun as this is, it also fills me with despair. For the last few weeks I've tried using these wasted hours of the commute to pray, to say the rosary or the novena, and it's never really worked. I just found myself getting distracted, attracted, or protracted. I don't seem to have any will power to take steps towards eternal salvation for me or for others. Give me a computer game though, and whoa, nothing is getting in my way, I am missing stops to carry on playing. This really gets me down. One of the huge issues when you look at the world, the evil that goes on, the suffering that exists, is the true cost of free will. But having a free will that you can't control, surely that is no free will at all. I take decisions to, for example, listen more, be there for others, act like a stupid arrogant idiot less, and do I find myself doing it? No! So how is that free will? In the words of St Paul:

'I do not understand what I do. For what I want to do I do not do, but what I hate I do.'

Oh and if ever you need cheering up ever again ever, check out these poems inspired (seriously) by the Zelda games. However bad life is, it could be a lot worse.